( closed ) the only ones who need love are the ones who don't receive enough

[gradenine]

WHO: roland and certain people
WHAT: roland came back after disappearing mysterious and realized some really bad things. plotting comment for reference.
WHERE: the garden
WHEN: around the middle of the month, before the event
WARNINGS: body horror, violence, talks about murder and other nihilistic shit. also major project moon spoilers. see his opt-out for more info.


[ roland emerged out of the darkness like a dream.

or rather, he stumbles into the relatively new location as if he woke up from a horrible nightmare, clutching at his head as he makes his way towards the tea-party setup. this was the last place he'd remembered before vanishing, but the details were foggy. he wasn't even aware how long it's been. all he knew was that he met someone terrible who gave him equally terrible news, but he's used to disappointments -- even more so in this desolate imitation of a city.

someone had left green tea on the table, still hot. binah had told him that green tea is good for him, so he may as well take the load off and hope that the drink will clear his mind, and make him forget the bad news he'd received from argalia.

ah, yes. argalia is here, angelica's own flesh and blood. angelica had come back wrong, he gleefully. right. totally normal.

...

luckily, this isn't the first time this abnormality has taken over roland. he's used to the way the muscular sinews bloom across his body like a second skin (or even a flesh wound), the multitude of eyes blinking themselves open and roving their pupils around to scan the area. a gnarled leg of a bird sprouts from the top of his head, flexing its digits. his own left arm, meanwhile, has morphed into a bulbous club made of muscle and claw, which he is using to thrash at a nearby flowerbed for speaking out of line. ]

Why is he here... Why. Why. Tell me...

[ "i know why he's here," the half-dead flowers insist. "nothing ever goes my way. this city is out to get me, too."

but just because he's too engrossed in destroying the flowers within reach, it doesn't mean that the bulging eyes won't notice whoever comes into the garden, their unblinking gazes boring into anyone's eyes should anyone stumbles this sorry sight. he is making quite the ruckus, after all. ]

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[gradenine]

[ roland really spoke out to berate don, that's how heinous she is in his eyes, his pitch-black heart. ]

There's nothing to laugh about... in this situation of ours. [ the flowers on his side quiet down, for he is actually telling the truth. ] You claim that you're doing it for the sake of others, but you're blinded with your own self-righteousness. You don't actually care what happens to others as long as you feel good about yourself.

[ nothing there gurgles in response to roland's outburst, its eyes roving all over don's person. roland then shuffles towards her, dragging his club arm across the floor. ]

You're going to realize one day that the Colors you worship are nothing like you think of them to be. All of them have killed with no remorse, like how you have killed yourself with no remorse.

[ then he lurches forward with breakneck speed, wielding his club like a honed swordmaster as he takes another swing at her. ]

I would know.

[icanfixer]

[ it's not easy to dodge, so she doesn't.

her ankles ache as her heels dig in painfully to the grass, the ground, shoulders set and even with the downsize on nothing there's strength a streak of dirt remains where she'd been--

of course, it doesn't take much to throw her off onto her backside again, but as ever don'll get to standing as best she can, even if she's beyond beginning to ache. ]

I do not need thee to put words in this mouth of mine. Just as I do not know thee, thou'rt unaware of myself.

[ simple as that. "the red mist would never," they cry in her place, "i shan't forgive thee for speaking so poorly of her," angered as can be. don has killed with no remorse. she'll be the first to say so, for justice and the like -- but killed all the same, without a second thought, even her own allies. that's true. it isn't anything to get angry over. but someone as renowned and a stunning example of all that was labeled hope as the red mist...

can't let that go unaddressed, in some way. it doesn't matter if roland lets her stand again, if she's pinned she'll still talk, if she's choked she'll struggle them out, if she's suffocated the flowers will talk for her-- so on, so on. ]

-- But it is because I have come to learn what it means to care for, and be cared for by others, that I can say that my justice is-- is nothing self-righteous -- it is born from my desire to protect those who I can. Because I want to protect them.

[ the flowers are silent.

perhaps they wouldn't have been a month, a week ago. but they're quiet now. ]

[gradenine]

[ for a moment, the entire garden falls silent. roland lets her words hang in the air for a moment, as though waiting for the flowers to contradict don.

it doesn't come. she's that stupidly naive, but not in the way vergilius is. it ticks roland off so bad that he just slams his foot down on don's backside, preventing her from getting up and rolling away. ]

You don't get what the Red Mist is all about. [ "she also couldn't save everyone. that was her downfall." ] There's no one worth saving in the City. We all die anyway. And not everyone can just simply come back like nothing happened--!

[ he then aggressively kicks don. stomps on her again. kick, stomp, kick, stomp with all the aggression of a man who has heard of all that before. ]

You can protect them all you want, [ with his normal arm, he picks don up by the hair. ] but who will come to save you from me?

[ "you're no match for me. and you know it." ]