[ open ] kaveh's permanent catch-all

[fussiest]

WHO: kaveh (fussiest) & y'all!
WHAT: this is a perpetual catch-all for kaveh because i'm too lazy to make a new one every month. this is for closed starters, tag-ins, visits to kaveh's workshop and the like! be wild! be bold! be free!
WHERE: all around the city, and especially at kaveh's workshop, the pairidaeza architectural design studio in district 1
WHEN: everywhere! everywhen! all at once!
WARNINGS: bickering, probably - everything else will be warned for on a thread-by-thread basis

Comments

[immortalpoet]

...

[So the act of struggling means something, huh? It's true. If it came far too easily it would be suspect. Both of them are struggling, but in a way where they're able to reach out and keep the other's head above water.]

[The question, so direct, makes him twist his mouth to the side - admittedly, a little embarrassed to be called out so bluntly. Time to lean on the classic sarcasm to cover sincerity!!!]

...I'd like to see him launched out a window on a good day.

[So. Yes.]

[fussiest]

[ kaveh laughs. ]

So long as you're in a position to rush down and catch him as he's falling out, I'd imagine.

[ but it settles something for kaveh, as it always does when emotions are in the equation. vergilius is a rough man, but he is true. he'll treat daan well. ]

Then, it's simple, isn't it? Persevere and do what it is you do for Daan until you understand it.

[immortalpoet]

...You make it sound so simple.

[As if anything good could be. Anything bad comes easy. Anything good must be kept out of reach.]

[It's how it's always been.]

And what if I never do?

[fussiest]

How is persevering simple? [ kaveh smiles. the smile is a self-deprecating one. kaveh had killed his father, and he had watched his mother waste away. this is what he has learned from it all: ] Perseverance is the refuge of the talentless and the desperate. It's what you do when you have nothing else to you and nothing left to lose save for that one thing. Persevering is the knowledge that you don't know where this path will lead to and when it will end, if ever, but that you still must walk it because the alternative is not walking it, and that isn't acceptable.

[ soft as dust: ] It is the recognition that you might not be enough, and are most certainly not enough in this moment, but you have to do it anyway, because there is something you love more than how much you hate yourself. So what if you never do? Even if you never do, the only thing you expend is yourself, right? So what loss is there? You might as well try.