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Yi Sang ([personal profile] reflexio) wrote in [community profile] citylogs2023-11-14 08:41 pm

november catch-all [open]

WHO: ([personal profile] reflexio) & you!!
WHAT: November catch-all and obligatory "where tf am I" log
WHERE: Everywhere (Welcome Diner, your an apartment, city park, etc.)
WHEN: Early November
WARNINGS: adjusted as needed






a. diner.

[ Wandering about proves to be fruitless. Instead, Yi Sang retraces his steps to the station.

Only then does he notice the flyers with their bold headlines. "LOST? NEW?" Yes, those two adjectives certainly describe him. He glances at the message posted on the flyer, memorizes the directions printed on it, and follows them to --

He inspects the building before him. Definitely a diner, though he's not sure what he'd expected given the flyer's notation of "The Welcome Diner."

It's difficult to tell whether anyone's inside, but the restaurant gives off a warm vibe. It's just enough of a nudge to encourage him into pushing the door open. After all, a lead is a lead.

...something warm to eat would be nice too. ]


Excuse me. Is this The Welcome Diner?

[ The flyers said it would be The Welcome Diner. The sign outside also reads "THE WELCOME DINER." Ergo, this must be The Welcome Diner, but one can never be too cautious given the bizarre city. ]


b. your an apartment.

[ The first door he'd opened revealed an empty living room. Its white walls and freshly-vacuumed floor are welcoming, but there's something terribly unsettling about the empty room too.

Yi Sang shuts the door to avoid thinking about it too hard.

He leaves the building and tries the one next to it. Just like the previous apartment complex, there's no trace of a soul in the lobby. He wanders to one of its doors, slowly turning the door knob and it's... unlocked?

Perhaps there has been no need to install locks on these apartment doors.

He steps into the living room and, immediately, it's apparent someone lives here, or at the very least, someone had lived here. Should he have knocked? Well, too late for that. He spies a picture frame on the coffee table, lifting it into his hands. There's... nothing in it. Odd.

Something shifts behind him. The sudden noise catches Yi Sang off guard, picture frame slipping through his fingers and shattering on the hardwood floor. ]


...my apologies. The door was unlocked.

[ Which isn't really a proper excuse, but it's the truth. ]

... Do you live here?


c. city park.

[ The expanse of lush green feels a bit out of place compared to all the buildings Yi Sang passed on his way here. And despite all the life contained within the flora, the lack of birds chirping is troubling.

Nevertheless, he's developed an affinity for the park over the past few days. It's peaceful for the most part, allowing him to recount what he's discovered so far: City Hall's record rooms? Empty. Tourist Center? Nothing of note. Greenhouse at the poison garden? Bad. Stuffed full of carnivorous plants.

A bound notebook lies open in his lap, a pen resting in its spine to mark his spot. Yi Sang uses one of his hands to keep the notebook flat. The other one, bandaged a bit haphazardly, rests in his lap.

Perhaps if one were to yell, he would lift his head to see who is calling for him. Otherwise, he appears deep in thought, a pensive frown on his face. ]



d. wildcard.

[ if none of these work, feel free to hmu for something more tailored! A PM is good or you can lmk here o7 ]
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-11-19 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ the piece of shattered glass scatter across the floor like distant stars. hong lu laughs. yi sang falls, and his state of being translates into motion. it's nice that it's a good kind of fall, without any of them turning into goo or losing a limb in between, though hong lu wouldn't complain even if that were the case. he can hear yi sang thinking. yi sang things quietly, in the way of a humming machine in the background - but sometimes, the foray of his thoughts leave echoes of footfalls that hong lu can hear across the room, as if yi sang were pacing in the very small room that is the confines of his mind.

hong lu can understand how that feels. he lets yi sang think it through, lets him figure out which question he needs to ask to understand the situation he is now in. and then, because he is hong lu, the answer comes with a cheerful, sing-song lilt:
]

Come look at the ceiling with me. [ hong lu holds yi sang's hand. his other lifts to point up at the popcorn ceiling above. ] Could you focus on just one spot if you closed one eye?
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-11-19 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[ yi sang settles next to hong lu. hong lu gently shifts aside to make room. the sound of broken glass scrapes across the floor as hong lu displaces the broken stars on the floor in favour of the intact stars embedded into the ceiling. he wonders for a moment - if two people were laying in the same spot, looking up at the same thing, will they see the same thing? will the thing that both of them see be the 'truth'?

much to think about, and possibly by someone who isn't hong lu. he considers the question. multiple spots to focus on... huh.
]

Follow my finger. [ hong lu draws his finger in an arc across the ceiling. and then, at random, he points at a spot that looks suitable. it looks like popcorn ceiling patch #8932742, but for hong lu, that feels like the brightest patch in this 'night sky'. ] How about there? That spot has more dots to look at. If I look at it long enough, it forms pictures.

Do the dots move for you?
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-11-23 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ yi sang paints a picture with his words. hong lu looks. and then, because he is hong lu, he closes his eyes so that he can better see. a cliff with an unseen flower in full bloom, a grave, the scent of that flower cloying like a funeral shroud. in truth, hong lu doesn't at all know what yi sang means. he has never seen an unseen flower in bloom, has never smelled its scent. has only ever seen the petals of the spicebush as it descended.

hong lu has never dug a grave. the soil must be cool to the touch. it must be large enough for a single person. perhaps it can be large enough for two.
]

Do you want me to bury you in a grave, Yi Sang?
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-11-24 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ to be buried by your hands, it would not be such a terrible thing - yi sang says this like it's a deliberated truth. all of yi sang's truths are like this. this is why hong lu likes listening to them so much - because every single truth that yi sang has ever come up with has been hard-won. there had been nine members of that little group once upon a time. hong lu doesn't know how it feels to lose those that you love and care about. but he understands how yi sang felt to lose those that you love and care about. yi sang loved that little group in such a way that it made hong lu fall in love a little too, to want a piece of it, just a bite of it, what it must be like to hold something so dear that you tore your wings to shreds in the aftermath. hong lu would like wings. he would like to tear out his own feathers, he would like to make a bed of it and and then show yi sang, and see what he makes of it.

it is, in fact, the first time that anyone has attributed anything positive to hong lu's hands. his hand, currently held around yi sang's, slowly shifts. the gesture is that of faint wonder, of a kind of faithless worship - hong lu believes in nothing, but if yi sang belives in it, then hong lu will believe in yi sang's belief. yi sang turns to him, and hong lu mirrors the motion. another new thought, hong lu thinks. another one that he has never considered, amongst so many thoughts never considered: that there had ever been an option for hong lu to join him.

hong lu smiles. there's a glimmer there along the cyan of his eye. the glimmer most native to a human eye is a tear.
]

It'll have to be a grave large enough for two. And I'm a little taller than you, too. [ hong lu considers this. ] I'd rather bury you first. Then, I can dig you up when I have a question, or I have something I need to tell you, or if there's something you need to do. I'll wake you up, and when you need to go back into the grave, I'll bury you again.

And when I've seen everything that there is to see and I've grown bored, I'll slip in next to you in the grave and bury myself there. I won't tell anyone where our grave is. I don't want anyone to disturb us. It'll be nice. [ hong lu says, and laughs. ] What do you think, Yi Sang? Would it be fun, to be buried with me?
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-11-24 10:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ another new thought: that anyone would ask hong lu for permission for anything. hong lu, who has never been asked if something could be done to him, looks. for a moment, he doesn't know what to say. what is it like, being able to accept or deny something at your own choosing. there had been many things that hong lu hadn't wanted to do throughout his life. he had always wondered what it would be like to say 'no', and have that thing stop. what a marvelous feeling it must be, to be able to experience such a thing.

it's tempting to do so right now. hong lu would like to know what it feels like to say no, and have it listened to. perhaps even considered. what fun that would be. but hong lu considers the premise, that it's a shared coffin. he looks about. the room does seem small enough for a coffin. hong lu has ever shared a coffin with someone before.

but more than anything, it's yi sang asking, and yi sang, too, never asked for anything. what happens, hong lu thinks, if someone who never asks for something asks something of someone who has never had anyone ask anything of them? what happens then? the thing about someone who's never been able to say 'no' is that they have also never been able to say 'yes'. that, too, will be something new. hong lu realises that he wants to find out, the shape of this thing that's taking place. hong lu wants to try saying 'yes', and see what yi sang will make of it.
]

Why would I say no? [ is hong lu's laughing answer, ] So my answer is 'yes'. This will be our shared grave, then. Hm, it's a bit small for a closet, but maybe it's roomy for a grave? I've never been buried before, so I wouldn't know. But it's large enough for two people, and that's all that we need.

What should we do? Should we decorate it? A grave has flowers, right?
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-11-25 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ it turns out, hong lu thinks, yi sang is as surprised as he is. what a funny thing, the two of them laying there in the living room the size of a small closet, looking back at each other in mirrored surprise. it feels nice, to know that hong lu isn't the only one who's finding out new things all the time. yi sang considers hong lu's question, and hong lu considers his response in turn.

a taxidermied form, hong lu thinks.
]

My grandmother would often taxidermy things so that she can keep it around. She likes to look at the things she keeps. [ hong lu muses. her collection rooms are sacred places, but she does like to look through them often. it had made sense to hong lu. things died very quickly, and they didn't often look presentable when they died. but when you taxidermied something, you take a snapshot of time. they were like that for the rest of their existence. but to hong lu, that had always seemed very boring. ] If you are taxidermied, it means that someone wanted to keep you the way you were, and that you are something I can look at for a long time, right? That's not a bad thing. Ah, but I like it better when you're moving, and can talk to me. Grandmother's collection is a very quiet one.

[ much like how hong lu's rooms were very quiet. they had been large, and filled with silence. this one, in contrast, is small, but filled with life and noise. hong lu likes it.

a sprig of plum blossom, huh...
]

Will we need a bus in this room, then...? [ hong lu looks around again. ] It's too small for Mephistopheles, though.

[ after all, the bus was part of the path they walked? but then again, they didn't exactly walk, since it's a bus. ]
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-11-25 05:39 am (UTC)(link)
[ a scale model, hong lu thinks. how marvelous. he wouldn't have been able to come up with a thought about that on his own. hong lu recalls the little models of mountains and sceneries that lined the hallways and the meditation rooms at the estate. he was never allowed to touch them. he wonders if he'll be allowed to touch the model of the bus - that might be fun.

still, it's a good question. as if for the first time, hong lu looks about and considers the strewn glass around them. it'd be nice if they could stay on the floor. they look like shattered stars, which are much more interesting than the stars that were so faraway in the night sky. the ones that you couldn't touch. these ones, you could. they could cut you open. they could leave a scar. you could be reminded that they existed, once. framed, glass, then...
]

Why would it be odd? [ asks hong lu, ] It's more interesting to look at than a framed Abnormality. [ finally, hong lu gives yi sang's hand a squeeze. he looks to him. ] I'll help you clear the glass. Do you just want them collected in the palm of your hand?
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-11-26 10:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ yi sang removes his hand from hong lu's grasp. hong lu feels its loss like an inexorable loss in a chain. how funny, hong lu thinks. he doesn't remember ever thinking of loss this way, that it was something to feel, and notice, and take in. hong lu doesn't think he much likes it, the idea of it. but yi sang's hands are nearby. hong lu can take them into his again later.

so hong lu gets up from his place on the floor. yi sang tears a page from his notebook. it's that notebook, hong lu thinks - the letters, the half-drawn wishes. the cry for help. the torn page is like a photo removed from its frame. hong lu smiles.

he reaches for a piece of glass. he sets it on the page. between the two of them, they collect the shattered pieces of a fallen star.
]

Your notebook is a book, right? Yi Sang, does your book have a title?
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-12-03 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ hong lu considers this. a book without a title until the book is finished. then how, hong lu wonders, would anyone know what the book is about without reading it? what if the book is never finished. but it's yi sang - yi sang will always finish what he has started to write. he wrote those letters after all, the letters that were very much like a cry for help. anyone with the courage to write those, no matter how subconsciously, has the courage to finish their story.

hong lu thinks, suddenly, that he would like to see it. the title of that finished book.
]

I look forward to it. I want to read it when it's done.

[ hong lu smiles, and drops another handful of broken glass shards upon yi sang's page. ] So don't rip out too many pages. Otherwise, there's less space for you to write everything you want to, right? And there'll be less for me to read.
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-12-03 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ a second notebook... there's an idea. hong lu wonders what it would take to get a notebook in this world. yi sang's notebook seems rather plain. hong lu remembers the notebooks back at the compound, with their tortoiseshell covers, or rolled up in little cylinders. hong lu hadn't been allowed to touch those, because they were made from the skin of rare animals or plants, and had text on there that hong lu wasn't good enough to read.

but yi sang likes his notebook. perhaps hong lu will have to find him one that looks similar to it. he considers this.
]

A page for my favourite items? [ the thought is an intriguing one. hong lu peers at the torn page. it's a rather long page. hm. ] I don't know if there are enough things that I like to fill a page that long. Do you?

[ and how does one come up with enough things to like? hong lu supposes he can list the mundane - he likes the sun, the rain, he likes being outside and doing his own things. but do those count enough to put on a page? ]
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-12-03 05:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ hong lu thinks - eventually, everyone forgets. a human's body is nothing but a void. you can throw all kinds of things in there, and it will fill up, but with time, everything falls through like a sieve. in the end, each person is alone, and bound. no person is truly free - not from the void, not from time, not from themselves.

this, hong lu doesn't say, because he would like to see yi sang's page full. he promised to be an anchor, after all. are anchors not supposed to remember the last place where a ship has been moored? even if yi sang forgets, hong lu will remember. he has very little to remember, after all, so there's plenty of space in his memories for such things.

this, hong lu doesn't say. instead:
]

Hmm... since neither of us has enough to fill a page, shall we share a page for now? That way, you won't have to use up twice as many pages. We can always fill up one page together, and then fill up the second one.
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[personal profile] yyds 2023-12-03 06:20 am (UTC)(link)
[ a third page. or a fourth. perhaps they can fill a book? but hong lu is not the optimist in this conversation. perhaps they will fill two pages, and the void will take the rest. nobody is free from their nature, after all. but nobody says that such things much make it onto the page. even if hong lu is the only one who remembers, it will be enough.

the glass tumbles onto the little pile. hong lu looks. the frame hadn't been a particularly large one, but seeing how little it looks as mere glass shards makes you think that the state of things truly change how these things look and feel. hong lu leans down and prods at the little pile of glass. he hums.
]

I'd like that. [ he laughs. ] Starting with this page, then. It's already been filled, but it's been filled by the glass.

[ still, if they're going to frame it... hong lu looks. he walks to the all, and removes another one of the photos. the photo comes out; it's left on the table as hong lu meanders back to yi sang. he holds out the new frame. ]

Here. So you can put the glass pieces in here.

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