It was likely the latter given the state of things regarding this facsimile of festivity.

[ he glances around the room, the annoyance still present in his expression, but at least it's a confirmation that it's not directed at Loki specifically. he glances back after a moment, like he needed to take a moment to work out how to phrase his answer. ]

I experienced something similar to what transpired a month ago, where visions appear of those I've known in the past come back to frighten.