[ Lestat watches the effect Armand's barely conscious words have on Louis with a kind of mute curiosity. He knows that their relationship is rocky and doesn't have to deliberate too hard on why that might be, but.. they'd spent years together still, hadn't they? Even if those years weren't idyllic, even if they'd been more necessary companions than companions by choice, and even if eventually they parted ways out of frustration or regret.. It's still such a long time to spend at the side of another. Had they never come to some mutual understanding?
Forgiveness is such a difficult to determine concept to Lestat. If you asked him he'd say that his grace toward it depends on the person and on how he's feeling, but in reality he leans toward absolution because the alternative is so much worse; the alternative of losing someone forever, of never being able to see or speak to them again, no matter what horrifying things they might have done, no matter what wrongs they might have done to him or he to them. Lestat has only witnessed Louis' ability to forgive when it came to him, and they never spoke about it beyond their initial reunion. Louis doesn't have the context for Armand's life any more than Lestat does, but somehow the wound still seems so raw in him.
When things quieten down again, when Louis hand brushes through Armand's hair and then relaxes, Lestat finally decides to speak. ]
He saw things in the dorms, much like I did. Things put there to taunt him. The bear, the glasses, a message carved into the desk. He thought they were real, that his fledgling is searching for him in our world. The pain of being away from him is a wound that won't heal. I've never seen him like this.
[ Lestat's voice is low but firm; he's clearly putting a lot of effort into staying impartial. ]
He's different from how I remember him. Something about him has changed.
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Forgiveness is such a difficult to determine concept to Lestat. If you asked him he'd say that his grace toward it depends on the person and on how he's feeling, but in reality he leans toward absolution because the alternative is so much worse; the alternative of losing someone forever, of never being able to see or speak to them again, no matter what horrifying things they might have done, no matter what wrongs they might have done to him or he to them. Lestat has only witnessed Louis' ability to forgive when it came to him, and they never spoke about it beyond their initial reunion. Louis doesn't have the context for Armand's life any more than Lestat does, but somehow the wound still seems so raw in him.
When things quieten down again, when Louis hand brushes through Armand's hair and then relaxes, Lestat finally decides to speak. ]
He saw things in the dorms, much like I did. Things put there to taunt him. The bear, the glasses, a message carved into the desk. He thought they were real, that his fledgling is searching for him in our world. The pain of being away from him is a wound that won't heal. I've never seen him like this.
[ Lestat's voice is low but firm; he's clearly putting a lot of effort into staying impartial. ]
He's different from how I remember him. Something about him has changed.