One must wonder, if neither of us are under any illusion about this, why we can't both try for a bit of sleep.
[ He knows, though, that they'll have to pick on each other for a bit before either of them can settle. He presses one eye shut as Kaveh's palm brushes over it. No one's done this for him since his mother, probably. Probably where he picked up the habit, come to think of it.
Midnight cradles Kaveh's hand between his, thinking for a moment. ]
You're trying to have me confront my pain, still. I'm still not terribly certain if that's at all valuable. Or possible, really. I am happy, Kaveh. In this moment, I am. I rarely think beyond that.
[ He sighs. ]
My motivations aren't nearly as complex as that, love. I just want to be happy enough to make others happy, and that's a process, not a goal. I want you to be happy someday, even if I'm not around to see it. I'll kip down with you, if that's what it takes.
[ ... He can see it though. Lying on the edge of this road like a dead fowlbeast. What he wants is to love others, Kaveh and all, properly, in the way they deserve. What he is inclined for isn't that. One step off the road is enough to kill. He knows it. He can't risk that. ]
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[ He knows, though, that they'll have to pick on each other for a bit before either of them can settle. He presses one eye shut as Kaveh's palm brushes over it. No one's done this for him since his mother, probably. Probably where he picked up the habit, come to think of it.
Midnight cradles Kaveh's hand between his, thinking for a moment. ]
You're trying to have me confront my pain, still. I'm still not terribly certain if that's at all valuable. Or possible, really. I am happy, Kaveh. In this moment, I am. I rarely think beyond that.
[ He sighs. ]
My motivations aren't nearly as complex as that, love. I just want to be happy enough to make others happy, and that's a process, not a goal. I want you to be happy someday, even if I'm not around to see it. I'll kip down with you, if that's what it takes.
[ ... He can see it though. Lying on the edge of this road like a dead fowlbeast. What he wants is to love others, Kaveh and all, properly, in the way they deserve. What he is inclined for isn't that. One step off the road is enough to kill. He knows it. He can't risk that. ]