( because people aren't that simple. it's something she's still figuring out for herself--that it isn't just her that has multitudes, but others, too.

it's hard to put distance between herself and the circumstances she speaks on; she's not as skilled as roland, or even the other librarians. it isn't easy for her to set aside that which formed her and informs her even now, but she tries, anyway. )

...There once was a young girl whose sole purpose was watching over a series of terrible events, and to provoke the responses she was supposed to. She fought against this time and time again, trying to find the line she could toe without the story restarting on her. Eventually, she gave up trying, and resigned herself to her fate: hurting those she had once thought she might have companionship with. Would you say this is a choice she was forced to make?