Yes, it was. A selfish, naive wish from someone who suffered a million years, who was never even meant to have a place in the so-called "enlightened city" that man wanted to achieve--

( hot, wet tears prick at her eyes. anger? sorrow? she clenches her fist and yanks hard to try and get away from him properly this time, even knowing she's no match. )

Does that make it an invalid reason? Do you hate me for being selfish? Are you going to kill me for wanting to be more than my role?

( it probably wouldn't matter to him the pain she had suffered, and as wound up as she is, she is keeping her lips tightly sealed. he isn't roland. he doesn't get that privilege. no one does. )