[It was nice of him to say that he did realize the errors of his ways. But at the end of the day, there wasn't much he could do. Shinjiro wasn't coming back and he knew no matter what he did, he couldn't erase that. As he let the gravity of his words sink in, he gave another sigh as he debated what to say.]

I just wish it didn't take me so long to realize how pointless everything was. Even after his death, I kept on thinking that I should just die as I didn't know what else to do.

[After all, now that his goal of getting revenge was over, what could he have done?]

My friends told me that there was no use in it as I could just sit there and do nothing. But that would solve anything as I just need to learn from my mistakes and move on. Although....

[As he gave a long pause once more, he looked upward. There were a lot of feelings despite the guilt washing away. What was he suppose to feel right now? Relief? Regret? Happiness? So much was going on all at once.]

Some days, it is a lot harder than it looks.